Hello, darling!

Welcome back to the blog! As I sit here wrapped in my oversized jumper, the morning air feels crisp, and the clouds outside are thick and grey. I’ve got a warm cup of mint tea in my hand and I finally feel ready to open up about something I have been going through.

Recently, I went through what felt like one of the darkest seasons of my life. It’s important for me to clarify that I was not diagnosed by a doctor with depression, this is simply how I felt. I was in a completely dark place, one that felt all-consuming and inescapable. Every day felt like a storm I was unprepared for the weather, and I often felt like I was drowning. In those moments, I’d sit quietly in prayer, sometimes just holding my Bible close, whispering for strength to make it through the day. It wasn’t easy, but with time, I started to find my way through that darkness. And now, I’m here to share this journey with you, in the hope that it might offer you a bit of hope or comfort if you’re facing something similar.

Acknowledging the Pain and Complexity

Depression, or what I felt as my experience of it, is incredibly complex. For me, it was far more than just sadness. There were layers of emotions: isolation, confusion, and a deep sense of hopelessness. Depression doesn’t always come from a single cause. Sometimes, life just feels too overwhelming, and even when there isn’t an obvious reason, our minds and hearts can feel too heavy to carry.

The biggest shift was when I allowed myself to acknowledge my own pain. I stopped ignoring or downplaying it and accepted that what I was going through was real and needed attention. It was like giving myself permission to feel without shame or fear, which became my first step toward finding light again.

Creating New Routines That Nourish

Building routines was a lifeline for me. Even the simplest tasks felt like too much some days, but having a structure helped bring stability to my days. I started waking up a bit earlier to stretch and meditate before the day’s demands took over. Taking even just a few minutes to pour back into myself became my first, small step toward healing.

I also began a 10,000-step goal and would go out for 1 hour for morning walks with my daughter. I never thought I’d enjoy it as much as I do now, but it became empowering to show up for myself daily. Moving my body, even gently, helped clear my mind and lifted my spirits. For anyone struggling with similar feelings, I encourage you to try some gentle movement, even just a walk or stretch. It’s incredible how much better I felt physically and mentally with even a little activity.

Finding Connection and Support

Depression or the deep struggle I went through can make you feel alone. But I found that opening up and leaning on the lord made such a difference. Even connecting with online communities helped.

Incorporating The Lord

My faith became my anchor. In my lowest moments, I’d cling to the scripture, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” Repeating that gave me comfort and reminded me that I wasn’t alone. If faith is a part of your life, lean into it. Faith, prayer, or even quiet meditation can bring a peace that’s hard to find elsewhere.

I also began using self-affirmations and celebrating small victories. Depression can make you feel like nothing is ever enough, but recognising every small step, even getting out of bed, became a powerful way to shift my mindset. celebrating the little wins helped me realise that healing is a process that takes time and grace.

One Day at a Time

Recovery isn’t a straight line. I still have tough days, but now I know I have the tools to manage them. Healing is about letting myself feel without judgment and taking things one day at a time. Giving myself permission to rest without guilt allowed me to let go of the need to have it all together.

This sesason has taught me that there is purpose in every day and that it’s okay to need help, to be vulnerable, and to find peace in my own way. If you’re reading this and struggling, please know that there’s hope. You don’t have to walk this path alone, and every small step you take to care for yourself can help guide you toward the light.

Thank you for being here, and for letting me share my story. I hope it brings you even some hope or strength.

Sending blessings your way,

Scherise. X